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[19 Aug 2005|08:29pm] |
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Hey World, Im Up Early cause im going to china town with my friends. It should be kick ass. I really wanna go but i dont have a lotta money so that makes me sad but ima make due with wat i have. Ill get threw it. I jus cant jump to buy summin when i see it. I have to learn to make good use of the things i buy and wat i buy if i dont get alotta money. Im listening to my favorite Japanese band (complements of Amber) Gackt. The Cd Love Letter. Its fucking Beautiful. Its all love music even if i cant understand it i can feel it. I might have a gf soon but permanent lamo. Well lets put it this way Ive liked her for a while and she has liked me for a while we jus never got the chance to go out but now we both feel that we should spring at the chance to go out. I mean i wanna be with one person who cares and there parents are ok with us dating and her parents approve of me so wat more could i want. I feel like ima changed person idk. ::Kevin thinks to Himself " Maybe It Was That Pot?!?!?":: Well Idk. I got like alot taller. I jus got this grot spurt outta no where, it was AMAZING or a MIRACLE. LMAO Well lemme keep gettin ready gotta look good for the asians. Lmao
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| Jus A Normal Update |
[09 Aug 2005|05:52pm] |
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Wow...... I didnt even think i memeberd the password to this. LMAO. Well i doubt anyones reading cause i havnt updated in so long. Well life is sketchy, very sketchy. I can find goods things and bad things that are happening. Lets see the other day i got my Vans Warp Your ticket and $250 for fixing dis kids computer. Im getting the other 265 soon. A Bad thing, sum1 who i care about dearly is not talking to me This isnt new, it happens all the time. I wish i could jus talk to her and bget through but u no how impossible people are today. These days are there anyone called friends. I dont think so anymore. It hurts to say it but i have lost all hope in the human race. I mean its everyday that something disapointing happens. Either i disapoint myself or or sum1 else. But its ok cause i no im not suppose to be perfect. Well i had summer school but i passed dis test where i don have to go any more so i have the rest of the summer left which is kinda exciting, cuz i don have to wake up early anymore even do i had to be in school at 11:40 which isnt that early but for me it is. I got new furniture for my room so im gratful for that. I was thinking and maybe sum1 here can help me. U know how everyone has summin that changed about them over the summer and everyone makes a big fuss over them and wat that thing is. i want that but i dont know if i have changed and i dont know wat i want to change. I mean i changed emotionally alot but no one will see that. But i mean i guess i wanna physical change. Summ1 people can see and say OMFG IS THAT KEVIN!. Ya no ?. >-<. Well im suppose to be going to the movies so im really happy for that.Anyone have sum adivice for me for my new school year ?. Well idk wat else to say and i haver mostly been writing becuz im bored but other then that yea jus fuck it.
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[31 Jul 2005|12:24am] |
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I got my new computer finally. its reall kickass and im very happy. Lets see how long it last.
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| My Life |
[21 Jul 2005|10:23pm] |
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The way i see my life and all my problems is as a shatterd glass with alotta diffrent pieces broken into more little pieces. In order to put the glass back together i have to put every little piece back where it belongs to make it whole agian. It takes time and patience but with the right tools and the right help which are my friends who i still have that galss mirror will be complete and ready to see myself once agian as a whole and not broken pieces of my life. The image will be clear and so will my friends next to me.
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| Hmmmmmmmm |
[19 Jul 2005|12:24am] |
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Idk i havnt written in a long time. But i guess some stuff has been happening. I mean sasha and i are talking once agian and loris and i have decided not to have anything to do with each other. I do love her but theres nuttin i can do. Im still chillen with amber and kirsty everyday which is really cool. Today we went to chill at amber's today. I saw american pie 2 and Dr.90210. It was fun and for the first time in my life i had a patato sald sandwitch lol. Then we came down to ma hosue and played DDR since there is a major and i mean MAJOR update on Final Fantasy 11 Online. Ive turned into one of them AHHHHHHHHHH. But its really fun leveling with amber and ma possie. Im a lil taru lol. He so cuteeeeeee and small. I saw lisa today. Lol she so cuteeeeeeee. But yea i saw her and i havnt seen her in so long and i got her number woot WOOT lol. Heather and i arent going so good right now. It makes me sad but all i can do is try and be there. There are still rumors flying around that i talk shit so ima jus let it be no time for non senses. OMG MY BROTHER GOT ME MY WARP TPUR TICKETS YAY AND HE IS BUYING ME AN I-POD IN SEPTEMBER. Lol im dumm happy but things can be better. O yea lol Amber, Kirsty and Myself found a whole bunch of shit that was missing in my trunk thingy so now we call it the "Black Hole Of All Missing Things" LMAO. I found my Md in there along with some RAM for my comp and ambers bracelet and also a book i needed. I found alootta shit lol. Im happy for that, ALL HAIL THE BLACK HOLE BOX.
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| I BEAT FINAL FANTASY 9 |
[10 Jul 2005|09:39pm] |
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I HAD A GREAT DAY, HAD FRIENDS OVER, HAD CHINESE FOOD AND BEST OF ALL I BEAT FINAL FANTASY 9.
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| SICK OF IT ALL |
[07 Jul 2005|09:49pm] |
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It seems that once summin good happens in my life it all goes terribly wrong. I hate friends. They always fucking let u donw no matter wat. I hate wen they make promises and dont keep them, I FUCKING HATE IT. I jus found out that im going to warp tour alone this year. SO BE IT. I dont need fucking anybody or anything. I dont even wwanna go on with all the pain im feeling. I keep having all these mix emotions with people and then when i start feleing strongly for a person summin has to happen. I mean life is jus so fucking grrrrrrrrrrr. There is one person in this whole fucking world who i really need to talk to. I miss her dearly. I mean i dont no how next year is gonna go, and the truth is im scared. I dont want it like this year. I dont no how to get people to belive my word over the word of other gossippers so in a way i have decided to jus say nothing. Ill deny it yes if it is false and jus thats it. ima not beg to people for forgivness for no reason. i didnt do nothing wrong, I ave always felt that if i know the truth its enough. But latly i need other people to belive for me. I jus cant do it alone anymore.Life gets harder and harder and more opsticles. Summ times i dont feel stong enough to go on or it could jus be that i dont want to go through all that shit. Living may as well be one of the hardest things i have had to do in my life. One second things are great and next its hell. Its hard to hold on to the good times cause there are barley any and wen i think of them they were most with my best friend so it hurts even more cause i now things are fucked up in that area of my life. TRUST is a big issue these days. I mean i have trust in alot of people, but people see to get the expression that i talk alotta shit. I have summin to say to all the peoiple who i supposbly talk shit bout ok, u ready?. Ok Think about this ok
1) Who Told You?
2) Are u Close?
3) Can They be trusted?
4) Do they like me?
5) Do I Hang with them?
****Hint****
If its not Kirsty, Kiki, Amber, Fransisco, Luis and thats basically it cause those are the ONLY people i chill with the most. And i can ASSURE U that i didnt say anything about anyof u because im always with them, ASK EM. I have no need to talk shit. Enough with kidde shit for real. All of it is kidde. Lets jus all dead everything. Im not staying angry im not. Life is harder knowing u have enemys and knowing there are alot of peole u dont like, It hurts. If i wanted to talk shit i wouldnt be mad pussy by doing it and then denying it. IF I SAID IT I DID, BUT IF I DIDNT I DIDNT. One other thing i have to understand is that people drift and i cant hold everyone together. So i jus hacve to let life run its course. IF U DRIFT U DRIFT. As long as i no its not me drifting from my friends im really happy.I NEED YOU.
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| I guess Im Not So Alone |
[06 Jul 2005|11:20pm] |
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Today was Fantastic. I mean fantastic. Today Amber, Kirsty and Fransisco and chris came over and it started raining, so we wre like u no wat lets go. WWe change our clothes and run outside in the pooring rain barefoot. It was jus so emotional for me. I mean ive been feelng alone and that heped make me feel really good. We were splashing and stuff, We were soaked. We were running across the street and splashign while people looked at us like OMG AND WTF!!!!! It was great. Its time like those we learn to treasure for ever. And belive me I will.
~Munkey~
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| Jus One Of Those Days |
[05 Jul 2005|09:10pm] |
I have been feeling so blah today. I mean i hate being alone and im not anymore. I have Amber, Kirsty & Fransisco. But its like Im still alone, Incomplete if thats wat u wanna call it. ALONE, Thats an intresting word. I mean there;s no spark in my life anymor. Although there is this one girl who make sme feel burrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Its so wierd, it gets harder and harder not to think bout her. I mean i want a chance with her but i want her to like me for me not jus cause i like her and she feels bad. Im so empty and i feel like this girl can fill that emptyness. I do have a spark with her, well atleast i feel it. idk if she does, Do u ?. I hope u do. Well Im hoping that Melissa and I are able to talk and settle all this shit that has been happening. If anyone has any suggestions please give em. I have a ques, Lets say summ1 is like yo so and so is talkign mad shit and there not and ur the person being accused wat would u do ?. I mean in all honesty wat would u play with the role ? Or jus deny it ?. People hate u eithr way. My honesty means nuttin to anyonme a nymore. I mean if i say im not talkign shit im not. Im not afriad to say it to the persons face. But ya no wat i learned alot this year. I Learned that u cat only depend on one friend but u cant depend on to many. I never knew my 9th grade year would be so hard. I have a bad rep, the person who talks shit but its all good because i no they cant take away my good friends cause they wont be guliable and jus belive it without comming to me. My opnion does matter to them and to myself. I know wat i say and dont say. I made alotta enimys this year but i made a couple of good friends. And to tell u the truth i wouldnt change this year for nuttin. I learned alott. The day i die is the day i stop learning. I will always learn summin and I always do. I have alotta friends but not to many good ones. I have to be able to distingish the diffrence between both. I did learn how. The ones who are there always but u neva notice. Thats them. Well Im done for tonight so lata
Munkey
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| TAKE IT !!!!! |
[05 Jul 2005|08:34pm] |
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1.Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Fave Color:
4. Fave Movie:
5. Fave Song:
6. Fave Band:
7. Most Embarassing Moment:
8. Are you a virgin?
HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...
1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. ...with tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I ask you out?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
8. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
12. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?
13. Do you think I'm a good person?
14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?
15.Do you think I'm Hot?
16. Would you call me just because?
17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they dont involve you?
18. If you could change anything about me, would you?
19.Would you have sex with me?
20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
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[30 Jun 2005|11:32pm] |
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Hey, Todayw as ok. im type scared cause i didnt go to register for summer school at museum Middle school. im really scred caus ei need it alot. I dont wanna be in the 9th. Well 2day i hung with Amber, Kirsty, Fransisco and Chris. We was all chillen watchin movies and shit. 2morrow i am going to see Heather because her sergury was today, so im real worried and going to see her tomorrow. I think she is so beautiful. She is great. I em goign to bring her gifts 2morrow. LOL. I cant wait. Life hasnt been so bad latly. I have jus been keeping to myself alot but hanging out alot. Ima jus live life and not care to much and have LOADS of fun. LOL. I mean i ahve alot planned this summa so thats kinda cool. I hope i go to summa school, really i do. Ima call 2morrow and see wat i can do. I have to fix my comp. Im so sad i need a new one. Ima try ~n~ fix this one. I LOVE EVERYONEEEE !!!!!!!!!! LOL. Im wierd lol. Well im out, im kinda tired.
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[28 Jun 2005|10:51pm] |
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OMG I may be one of the most happiest people in the world right now. I got to kiss a girl who i have a major chrush on. Althought I feel like she kinda didnt wanna be here or with me and rather have been with anyone else. I loved it do. I wish i could have gotten more make outs do. But maybe ya neva no, it could happen agian. I hope so.
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| BLAH! |
[28 Jun 2005|12:41am] |
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Hmmmmmmm I havent written for a while. I have summer school which is good and bad. Atleast it means ill be more active and shit ya now. Im not staying fat, ima try to work out this summer and shit. Well John, Luis & Myself are having a LAN party although im better than all them lol. I was ownin maybe a lil, i got like 3 kills. Today my stomach was killing me cause I ate Taco Bell with Luis, Hanan, Kirsty, Amber & Francisco. It was fun but OMG THE FOOD. Yuck. Well it tasted good lol. Latly i have jus been laif back ya no chillen while i can lol. FUCKING SUMMER SCHOOL. I was thinking today hmmmmm wat did i learn this year. I learned that friedns come and go and not to trust and be a friend to everyone. Sumtimes it may be smarter to keep shit to nyself about sum things. Realize my enviorment and no my people. I have to no who is gonna be there wen ima fight and get jumped ya know. I have to no how quick me and my friends can react. But im doing better with alotta stuff so im kinda happy. I can never truly say im completly happy. Hmmmmmmmm well i guess dats it. All i can say is that all my beef with lincoln and everyone from there DEDTED!!!!!! NO MORE, ITS A WASTE OF TIME BEING ANGRY.
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Last Night was O.K fun !!!!!!!!! I had people stay over last night. Can u guess who ?. Well ull never find out muhahahahahaha. Kirsty and I stayed up till lik 1:00 in the morning waiting for Kiki to come cleep over with us. Kiki is such a fucking nub. She comes at like fuckingr873298563596 in the morning. I never new there was summin that early. Last night Kirsty and I read all my Lj's From when i started writing. It got me real emotional.
Kevin:
2004
November 30
December 26
Mike & John:
2004
January 29
Sahsa:
2004
January 29,31
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| Life Is it worth it ? |
[19 Jun 2005|11:25pm] |
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Agian Life goes down. Atleast mine. It seems that everyones growing but me O( persnoality wise). I mean the term friend is so jus grrrr. I mean if ur sum1 ones friend u stay that way. Ofcourse there are gonna be bumpy times and maybe ull go threw mad shit but sticking together is wat works. I mean think of it this way. The Justice legaue. Without there powers there nobody. Jus like friends if they dont have the trust and willingness to keep being friends. I mean i no ive mad mistakes, but wat i need to learn is that life goes on. It wont wait for me to sulk in a corner. Mad people are like " Kevin why u talkin shit, I dont wanna be ur friend no more, U dont love me" To all those people i need u to shut it. its stopping. Enough is Enough. U dont wannabe my friend well then i think of it as u lossing ur oportu nity. It may sound fucked up but i dont giva fuck. I try to hard to satisfy others. People stay to sleep over my house and i try tyo give them the fucking BEST time over. When i have money which is almost never i spend it on others. In order for me to make "EVERYONE ELSE" Happy i have to be. For now on Me and my family come first. I have to no that the closest thing is ur family. U people who are close but arent blood u ar e like family. i no who i should keep close and fucking let go. Someone once said to me that they consider friends "Disposiable". I no wat they mean now. Another good friend told me " Not everyones gonna be ur friend, and not everyones gonna like u" " So that means FUCK IT, WHO THE FUCK CARES U HAVE ME?. Friends mean so much but they come and go. Same goes for me people, i try to be the best i cant but can sumtimes be seen ass "annoying" or acting like an "asshole". I jus dont care anymore. If u dont liek em u dont. I will try to fix things. But another great friend of mine once told me " Dont try to fix summin that isnt broken". Its so tru, i need my friends and family so those friends that i have left please and im asking u with my heart stay with me. No matter wat happens.
And for all the people who talk shit behind my bac. KEEP GOING. Because ima show u hoe good i am. Its not gonna bother me. Its nuttin, i find it funny because ur spening vauluable time talking shit about me. U must really love me. And always remeber and i no i always will. Karma always always ALWAYS comes bac around and bite u in the ass. So have fun talking bout me. Ima go spend time with the people i love most while u sit there loving me.
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| A Big Crush |
[16 Jun 2005|09:48pm] |
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Omg i have like the biggest crush on this girl. I want to go out with her but she is having hard times right now. i think i can be the guy for her but idk, maybe im not wat she wants but maybe i can satisfy. I mean from wat i see she jus got out of a terriable relationship. I mean apparently from wat i hear her x is a low life and basically is on earth for shit. I wanna be good for Heather. When im around her i feel diffrent, but good diffrent. I mean i truly like her but i dont know if tha'll be enough for her but ill do ma best.
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| That test was EZZZZY |
[14 Jun 2005|08:28am] |
lol yo i jus took my liveing enviroment final and that shit was EZZZZZZY street. Omg like i never do shit in this class. I was here like 10 minutes late and i still finished first than eveyone. Lol I passed that i know it. No i gotta go take my spanish which i now ima pass so lets hope today goes great o yea.
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kIKI, Amber & Kirsty and etc. I didnt foget all u thanx alot fo being a good friend when iu needed ity yesterday. I like almosy had an emotion Break down. LOL rember thant in my room . Lol that shit was type funny. I tend to overexagerate a bit. but my heart really was hurting. I know that u guys are my good friend and if my "Other" friends wanna be asses to me let it be. If people dont accept my pology then w/e i have u guys. But i hope u no that i am still gonna be a lil fucked up in the head cause i will like never get over this. With ur help it is possible. Everything is ok but as soon as i see her face. ALL HELL BREAKS LOSE. But everyone and that includes u luis and diane thanx for being great friends. Luis i hope this is the begging of a fantastic 4 relastionship
hmmm that was mad gay lest see
1. kiki
2.aMBER
3kIrsty
4. Me
5. Luis
AND DOOOOM DOOOOOOM DOOOOOOM KOREAN
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| So Cool |
[11 Jun 2005|07:46am] |
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I got my tongue pierced in the Vill. It hurt so fucking much soooooooooooo much, its all swollen. Lol. Loris and I broke up but this starts a new chapter in my life yay. I mean i love her and miss her but it was comming to an end and as long as she is happy so am I. Even if thats with Nelson.
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| I JUS DONT KNOW |
[08 Jun 2005|09:16am] |
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I stayed home today., I was jus so exhusted. I hate today it was lke grrrr. Yesterday wasnt so good either. I mean we had the Picnic which was fucking awsome and the food was so/so. Kiki & I had an egg toss, Kiki told me she couldnt catch. I figured wat the hell have some fun. We made it to the last round. we were atleast 15 feet apart or maybe more chucking a fucking egg. We didnt win but we had fun it craked on kiki's knee. I LOVE KIKI SO MUCH. She chased me around the whole fucking field lol. After all that we went to Makenzys house with Ma nigga edwin, luis and kiki. We were working out in Makenzys uncles gym which was great. IM BROLICSS.!.!. I got a keg ma nigga. i Guess it wasnt so bad.
Munkey
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